By Dena Leichnitz

It was 12 years ago

On this very day

That I wished to die

And take my life away.

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The solution that I sought

Was in a bottle of pills

And when I laid down to die

I prayed they would kill.

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I was troubled by a death

And yet not by my own

For the day that he died

My pain had only grown.

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I wanted to be reunited

And today was not too soon

So I swallowed them all down

And went to my room.

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But I did not die

And my life was saved

But it was still destroyed

I just wasn’t in a grave.

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When I was 14 years old

I embraced suicide

But what I learned was

Surviving is one wicked ride.

Copyright 1996

If you are a teen or anyone struggling with suicidal thoughts, please get help. Life can get better. It is not all darkness even though it seems that way now. I have been where you are and walked out the other side.

Here are some places you can call.

Teen hotlines:

(310) 855-HOPE (4673) From 6pm to 10pm Pacific Time

(800) TLC-TEEN (852-8336) From 6pm to 10pm Pacific Time

Text TEEN to 839863 from 6pm to 10pm Pacific

However, we know suicidal thoughts have their own timelines so if you need help any time day or night call the 24 help line at 877-727-4747.

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